* Say the word "20" (Twenty), twenty times.... (twenty,twenty,twenty...so on)
20
20
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.... are you done?
QUICK!!! NAME A VEGETABLE! don't think too hard.
what is the first thing that comes you your mind?
Was it CARROTS? (freaky isn't it?) *
Adapted from a psychology course @ Columbia University...
DID IT WORK FOR YOU? if it didn't, you are one WEIRD guy...

i'm not who i am.

sometimes i find myself thinking of those vicious things.
some bad things that bad guys do.
i just dont know to explain to you guys.
its inside of me that's bad.
i'm not a bad guy.
its inside of me.
its someone inside of me
that's psycho-ling me.
i dont know who i am.
till now, i'm still able to control myself.
but later...
wish for the best.
i'm having negative thoughts.
negative thoughts.
eg; abandoning my friends.
doing things that makes my friends mad.
i just dont know.
but since i'm typing here, telling you guys how i felt.
hoping that i would not do that.
talk to me!

settled down.

haahha.
everything has settled down for me.
i guess....
thought that the outcome would be someone with a black eye.
but everything went smoothly,
only some staring.
hahaah!
finally got it off my chest.
i love you guys man!
see ya again soon!

i do what i like.
fuck you!

is it because of you. we became like that?
or is it because of your jokes, we became like this?
conclusion, is because of you.
ok, even if we're back together, there'll be "scar".
how?
what should we do?
" We Live By Ourselves"
is kinda of sad when you guys hear this.
this may not be the best solution.
but this is what the majourity is having now.
a kind of illness,
everyone looks so sad.
look so deprived.
its because they've lost something.
or we've lost something.
2 best friends.
gain something.
a "scar",
a lesson.
what are we going to do?
be friends again?
there's a scar.
never be friends again?
cannot put down.
cannot accept it.
dilemma.
shit!

losing confidence.

i'm losing confidence over this relationship.
or already lost my confidence.
how should i explain.
2 of my friends have gone suddenly.
what if another one leave just like that?
i dont think i can carry on..



//i really appreciate when 2 of you are with me.
i've cherish eveyday,everything with you.
but those words you've said makes me have a wrong judgement in you.
you weren't the guy i'm looking for.
you change totally.
till now i'm unable to accept the fact that both of you are not with us.
or either the whole lot of us is not with you.
what makes me hate you most is that, you avoid us, not answering our call
or reply our message.
AND showing us the face we dont like.
being indecisive.
i'm vicious.
i'm cold-blooded.
though you are angry.
you've shown your true self.
i wont show you any sympathy.

its over.

finally, its over.
over as in,
our friendship has come to an end.
really hard to accept the truth.
but, no choice. have to!
it may be a brand new start for you & me.
it may be a turining point for us.
i'm sad.definitely.
i've lost 2 friends just like that.
though i remain calm.
bitting my finger nails.
i cannot believe that 2 of my friends just turn away.
i dont know if i would to explain, would it help a little?
"i'm a racist!" i'm not talking about you, you're just being over-sensitive.
i never treat you as a malay nor an indian.
we're one.
the arimethicof love.
1+1= eveything.
1-1= nothing.
"no more slacker"
didn't know that you really mind so much about this sentence.
you should have confronted me by then.
but nvm.
i apologise.
now i know slackers isn't a life for me.
we used to slack around esso, northpoint.
what we do is to chat,drink soya milk.
buy delifrance and eat.
hahahah!
let me have the lifesytle i want.

friends or foe?

yea, friends or foe?
do you treat us like foe?
do we treat you as foe?
do you treat us a friend?
do we treat you as friend?

have we done our part?
is it enough?
what exactly happen? (we wanna confirm)
are we in a wrong? (we = us)
should we give in? (we = you & us)
can we close an eye and take it nothing happen?
can you close an eye and take it nothing happen?
when are you going to forgive us?
have you thought about the future?
how are we going to face each other?
what if somehow, someday, different thing happen, but it concern the same party.
are you still going to forgive us?
or either, are we still going to forgive you?
think about it

change for the better.

i've sort it out through.
though its hard. but since i've got nothing to lose.
why not?
there's still a little tiny winy thing insdie of me that i find it hard to dig it out.
anyway i've got nothing to lose.
so dont worry much.
misunderstanding.
that lead us to so many problems.
take it in another perspective.
look it in another way, you'll learn to see things differently.

bless me, tomorrow's MT oral.

i still can't get this right.

our problems have come to a solution.
but there's something still bugging me inside my heart.
it takes time to let things go.
time heals everything.
have i ever come to this end?
am i willing to do this to him?
yes.
if its for a friendship.
i've got nothing to lose.
(:
i didn't agree to what kaiming was saying just now.
to give in.
and let it be.
what if he did the same thing to us.
not by the same way.
what if there's another misunderstanding? are you willing to give in AGAIN?
or just stick out your ass hit it hard and walk off.
you know that feeling before our trip to sentosa.
that feeling.
that closeness.
that kind of feeling when its without you.
i'd msg you.
i felt really disappointed when you weren't there for the sentosa trip.
i was angry.
but it sounds ridiculous when i heard that you were angry also.


what comes to what. we're still friends no matter what.
i'll still ask you out.
i'm now in dazed.
dont know what should i do next.
guidence....please..

tomorrow my o level MT oral.
bless me with that!

friends

friends.
misunderstanding.
avoiding.
why?
i tried putting myself into your shoe.
and see if you should be angry.
i can only find a reason why you are angry with me and not the others.
you are angry with me,yes! you should.
shouldn't i be more angry?
is there some kind of misunderstanding between us? they are not involved.
dont drag them down.
come out and talk to me right now.
talk to me like a MAN!

i'm also avoiding my "friends"
there must be some reason why am i avoiding them.
yes there is.
they are stressing me to go for some "ban qi."
which i cannot make it.
what makes me hate them is they wont give up.
they'll keep on stress you till you have no choice.
if you have an appointment on that particular day.
they'll asked you to postpone it.
yea that's exactly what they are.
but they are not bad la.. they are not that worst!
hahhaah.
they just came into my room to have a chat with me.
verbal misunderstanding.
communication problem.
(:
may the "tao" be with you..

sort it out.
everything would be just fine.
come out and talk to us like a man.
we would apologise if there's we did anything wrong.
miss ya lots.
love them.